There is a reflection in water, as i watch it closely, it stares back at me. Calm, still water and there i see two pairs of eyes looking back at me.
I see no reflection of a thought in the eyes that stare back, all i see is the calmness which engulfs the environment. Then suddenly a ripple comes, i move from my spot and the eyes become hazy and vanish. I see clear blue sky reflecting now back at me.
Was this my thought or it had actually happened? I am in a daze as the eyes staring back at me haunt my inner desire to believe in what i saw. Its not that i dont understand reflection or looking at my own image is haunting me. Its the cold stare back at me, as if someone is looking at me from a third person perspective which is making me think.
Is it possible that i am thinking and my own reflection is just looking with no thoughts and judgement? Is it possible to be looking at own actions and without a thought.
I move towards the edge to once again look at the eyes. This time i see them mocking me , while i want a serious answer all i can feel is a mock stare. This is strange, first blank and now a mock. I cannot understand my emotions and i take a deep breath and move away.
The thought lingers with me, while i am driving. I cannot understand my own reflection. I claim to undertsand people and know them, yet i cannot fathom for the love of this universe what my own reflection was saying to me.
At times its just a gesture of our eyes or our body language which says more than what we can say with words. Its more to feel and believe in than to just hear the words.
There is an old saying which i guess goes this way " Be carefull of what you hear or see, till the time your heart does not believe in it, do not believe in it."
My logic says this is not possible. The truth can only be ascertained by hearing and looking at something. We can come up with phantoms and start imagining things. I agree it sounds very strange but then i also believe that our heart does know what we are seaching for.
My journey within has taken many twists and turns, my belief in myself has increased and i am grateful that i took a chance on myself. The eyes have taught me enough , to not have a reasonable doubt come in my mind when i am focussed on getting a job done.
I cannot understand that we look for people all our life to guide us, mentor us, be our spiritual guru's , we believe in everyone but not ourselves? Maybe this is a repetitive question in all my blogs, because i cannot understand the low self esteem which so many have in this world. Strangely the one with huge attitudes don't understand that the superiority complex comes from deep sub conscious low esteem. Very very strange but true. So if we remove these two complexes what do we have left? Just our selves, and what percentage of people are truly just themselves in this made up world of ours?
Fear of acceptance, fear of being ridiculed, fear of being outcast, fear of being alone... the list goes on and we never stop to be just us and believe in ourselves. When was the last time we just said our thoughts out aloud?
The eyes can laugh, they can mock, they can give a cold stare we are ok with us being in a situation of confusion inside, rather than creating a space for ourselves. Our desire and need to fit in this society is too primate for our own existence.
Be it at work or personal, we need to be accepted. We need to follow the rules or we are scared of being outcast. This insecurity and desire of acceptance is really very sad, how can a person who is the part of this cosmos and has so much to offer to this world be so primate in thinking?
Eventually there will come a time when we will start believing in Ourselves. We will follow our heart and it will set us free.
I see no reflection of a thought in the eyes that stare back, all i see is the calmness which engulfs the environment. Then suddenly a ripple comes, i move from my spot and the eyes become hazy and vanish. I see clear blue sky reflecting now back at me.
Was this my thought or it had actually happened? I am in a daze as the eyes staring back at me haunt my inner desire to believe in what i saw. Its not that i dont understand reflection or looking at my own image is haunting me. Its the cold stare back at me, as if someone is looking at me from a third person perspective which is making me think.
Is it possible that i am thinking and my own reflection is just looking with no thoughts and judgement? Is it possible to be looking at own actions and without a thought.
I move towards the edge to once again look at the eyes. This time i see them mocking me , while i want a serious answer all i can feel is a mock stare. This is strange, first blank and now a mock. I cannot understand my emotions and i take a deep breath and move away.
The thought lingers with me, while i am driving. I cannot understand my own reflection. I claim to undertsand people and know them, yet i cannot fathom for the love of this universe what my own reflection was saying to me.
At times its just a gesture of our eyes or our body language which says more than what we can say with words. Its more to feel and believe in than to just hear the words.
There is an old saying which i guess goes this way " Be carefull of what you hear or see, till the time your heart does not believe in it, do not believe in it."
My logic says this is not possible. The truth can only be ascertained by hearing and looking at something. We can come up with phantoms and start imagining things. I agree it sounds very strange but then i also believe that our heart does know what we are seaching for.
My journey within has taken many twists and turns, my belief in myself has increased and i am grateful that i took a chance on myself. The eyes have taught me enough , to not have a reasonable doubt come in my mind when i am focussed on getting a job done.
I cannot understand that we look for people all our life to guide us, mentor us, be our spiritual guru's , we believe in everyone but not ourselves? Maybe this is a repetitive question in all my blogs, because i cannot understand the low self esteem which so many have in this world. Strangely the one with huge attitudes don't understand that the superiority complex comes from deep sub conscious low esteem. Very very strange but true. So if we remove these two complexes what do we have left? Just our selves, and what percentage of people are truly just themselves in this made up world of ours?
Fear of acceptance, fear of being ridiculed, fear of being outcast, fear of being alone... the list goes on and we never stop to be just us and believe in ourselves. When was the last time we just said our thoughts out aloud?
The eyes can laugh, they can mock, they can give a cold stare we are ok with us being in a situation of confusion inside, rather than creating a space for ourselves. Our desire and need to fit in this society is too primate for our own existence.
Be it at work or personal, we need to be accepted. We need to follow the rules or we are scared of being outcast. This insecurity and desire of acceptance is really very sad, how can a person who is the part of this cosmos and has so much to offer to this world be so primate in thinking?
Eventually there will come a time when we will start believing in Ourselves. We will follow our heart and it will set us free.
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