The pup who made us Parents

On May 1, 2016, i got the greatest present for my birthday... a small pup who i named Sam. The naughty one, the intelligent one, the most cutest one... the one who made me a parent.

Its true, if one cannot love a dog as family, then one should never get a dog. They only know how to love, to run with your things to get your attention and to give unconditional love. Such is the story of Sam n Me.
Thats how i started writing Sam diaries and suddenly i was amazed, meeting people for the first time and they knew Sam. It was uncanny , i am at a party, meeting the person for first time and i am asked how is Sam? I read Sam diaries and they are very entertaining. Well i just write about my day with Sam. Him jumping in a fountain , playing with water, or trying to jump on a pigeon as we both tried pigeon hunting or playing with a Rottweiler and thinking its normal for all dogs to be big, when he was just 5 months old. Such are the stories which i have shared. On any given day, there is a special moment which gets a smile on my face. Sam knows how to be a performer, a born actor thats all I know.
With Sam, we realised both me and Rolf that life is not going to be same for us. He cries and howls if left alone. All of a sudden we felt we had a child. Lucky for us we don't have school pangs but other than that we are Paw Parents. Getting up at 6 am has become a ritual for me. there are no holidays. He just waits for me to open my eyes, he is watching carefully, to see the eyelids open and once i do open my eyes there is no going back to sleep. He is up and ready to go for his walk.
Sam is  a tough boy that's all i will say. Diagnosed with Hip dysplasia when he was 5 months old, got himself to break his hind leg when he was 6 months old and even with all his pain, he has beaten the odds.
Every day i learn from this little pup who is growing size but to me is always a baby. His unconditional love, his little noises when he drops his bone or ball and wants me to fetch for him than he fetching for it. Sometimes i wonder who is training whom. But then Sam is a free spirited animal, i have no intention to control him. He has wings and i want him to be who he is. He has taught me to live in this moment. His quirky little ways, his jumping and his non stop attention grabbing has made me realised, one life... live it the way you want to.
There are times when i can relate myself as parent, there were times if any of my girlfriends spoke about girlfriends of their son's and how they hated those girls for wasting time of their son. I used to laugh and tell them hey let the boy have his own life. But today i suddenly realised when Sam & I were out for a walk and this stray dog (female) was all about following Sam to be with him. my first thought was Sam stop thinking about this girl and do your job. Lets get going with nature calls first before you want to impress this dame. All of a sudden i realised what my girlfriends meant.
I had a lion king earlier, Simba my child, my little black monster, a cute black lab who was my shadow, but with Simba life was easy. He would either be at my office, or stay home sometimes alone or stay in kennel when i was travelling. No headaches and life was as i wanted to live it. But Sam is different, he is demanding of my time, hates when i have to go out, and hates more my laptop when i am working.
I never wanted to have a child, loved my carefree life, my work and travel. But then suddenly this little pup comes in my life and all of a sudden i am a responsible parent.
So i might not be The monk who sold her ferrari, but i am certainly The woman who a pup made a parent.

What if... nothing exists and we are all in somebody's dream!

Life is to live, every moment cannot be planned and every success is not guaranteed. But one thing is for sure, to err is human and we can only experience life through our mistakes. That nagging feeling, when we get stuck in the "what if" cycle of not taking chances because we are scared of the outcome.
Then one day as we look back in our life, "what if" plays a big role in shaping us. We reminisce our past, come up with different answers to the same question, yet we will never know the out come as we never took that chance.
It's like some people like seeing the world through books, while other experience it by travelling and being out there. Its always a matter of what we are willing to do makes us who we are. Some where i feel we have put so many restrictions on ourselves, some knowingly while others unknowingly. How do 7.6 billion people live in harmony? We have built a society structure of do's. We have built in religion, to ensure people move in herds. We have built in social & civic responsibility in this structure and then we have built an hierarchy to this structure. We have built money and credit, so we keep working, aspiring for a better life and never question the source of all this stupidity. Any one who breaks this is an Outlaw. Punishments are severe depending on the rules broken.
In the end, let me ask you this question : Who has made the rules for you to live your life?

Not today, but think about this question and do give it a thought.

We propagate , "Let go", " forgiveness is better than revenge", "Live life", "Change starts from within" etc etc.... so many quotes, so many thoughts.... yet who is telling you all this? This is what we have grown up with, we all are perfect example of how to live through some one's vision of controlling human mind.
But then, if there are no rules or law & order, we see how people behave. Some where this model has not worked, because Man is an animal first, evolution has surely happened and we have learnt to talk, but then even animals talk among themselves, its only we don't know what they are saying. Then why are we so scared of being who we are. Why when the law & order breaks down, half of us show our innate dna of being ferocious animals while other show them being scared and coward. Strange the way we are controlled is the way we want to control everyone.
What if, the ape had never learnt to walk straight? What if, we humans had learnt to be kind to all animals and humans? What if, we had worked towards protecting our resources than running after the money and depleting our resources ? What if , we did not exist? what if, all this is an illusion?

Will this "What if" be yet another chance which could have made a difference?
May be - May be not, we will never know.
Sometimes you wonder who is actually calling the shots in your life.

What if i fail? but darling.... What if you Fly?