Right or Wrong

What is Right for me? What is it that i am not supposed to do? Will people accept me if i just do what i want to?
Sounds familiar?

We spend our entire life trying to live in the realm of Right and Wrong. Our life is spend thinking about how our actions will be percieved. Invisible chains of right and wrong are all around us, but then this is the life we have chosen.
Since we are children its ingrained in us, the parameters of right and wrong. Sacrifice and righteousness are taught to go hand in hand. One's feelings and act of following them is termed as selfishness and then once again we let go of who we really want to be, beacause we want to do things right.
I somehow never understood this, and till date i am struggling to understand this. If my actions which give me happiness bring sadness to someone else... Am i selfish? Am i wrong?
Parameters of boundaries is an alien concept in the society we live in. Somehow, we have somewhere lost our identity , to be someone who i dont think we can even relate to.
This leads to frustrations, our mind is viscious and our soul a child. Mind can relate to being righteous but soul is just who you are. There is no right and wrong for the soul.
Imagine a child who has no concept of this is playing, watch the child closely and you will see fearless eyes and an aura which even a yogi's after years of medidation at times cannot achieve. Strange this sounds , but the soul is alive and kicking in a child. When we say watch the world from a child's eyes thats when you would realise children can see aura's of living beings and they are more attuned with spiritualism than we are as grown ups.
There is no right and wrong in a childs eyes, till the time we dont put these thoughts in them. How can a soul distinguish when we are are from the same energy.
I have heard people ask God for forgiveness. This confuses me even more. In the eyes of God there is no right or wrong. How can the divine energy forgive, when this concept does not exist. Divine energy flows within all of us. Then what are we asking forgiveness for?
Is it my concious which needs a closure? Or is it my fear of going to hell after death which needs forgiveness for soul to go to heaven?
This baffles me further; heaven or hell is here in this moment we choose to live in.

Right or wrong , i dont know the answer but i do understand love in your heart makes everything unconditional and acceptable.
The choice is within us.

Journey Within: I am a Farmer

Journey Within: I am a Farmer: "What you sow, is what you reep" Its a funny story. Few years ago the introduction of my linkedin profile was I am a Farmer! ...

I am a Farmer

"What you sow, is what you reep"

Its a funny story. Few years ago the introduction of my linkedin profile was I am a Farmer!

The people who contacted me were very like minded who understood the meaning of my this one line. Strangely our programming to be accepted in this robotic society is based on Do's and Don't's. I had few friends who are senior Human resource managers and others etc who told me that if you wanted to be noticed in your business world you should not put this line as your introduction. 

This surprised me because photo copy profiles are very boring, similarly to a photocopy society. There has to be an element of freshness and ideas which help us to grow within.

Being objective and wanting to try new ideas , i removed this line for some time from my profile. The result was series of people who i personally had nothing in common with, started contacting me as i was just one of them, with my tethered profile as per the Do's. 

After this small experiment i went back to my line "I am a Farmer"

Imagine a world where there are all builders. We build blocks of our necessities and desires. There is no place to change as we are functional human beings driven by our innate desire to be someone. Imagine your thought process under these blocks and surrounded by the walls of concrete ideas, can you grow?

Even a plant needs soil, water, manure and fresh air. Are we humans not similar to the nature around us? Our ideas need the soil ( grounding within us), needs water ( ideas that flow within us), need manure (like minded people for our growth) and fresh air ( the will to take the leap of faith within). We all want to grow; difference is just the thought . 

Some want to be builders and amass huge sums of monetary gains because thats what growth to them is. What do they do next? Blocks can only grow to certain limit after that you are enclosed within your own concrete jungle of thoughts No where else to go? Then either we sell these blocks and start making new one's. Sometimes we say today we retire and give back to the society. Thats when  we choose to be a Farmer.

So my friends if in the end of a very long journey to meet its destination i want to be a Farmer, why can't i be a Farmer from the start. Every human wants to grow within and with that comes the circle of being like minded farmers connecting together for this growth. New ideas and new patterns is what makes us feel the rush within. 

At times , we come to cross roads in our life where everything is boring, our mind and soul needs a stirring but we are too scared to move out of the blocks and try to free our mind. Its a mindset, where growth within is an ongoing process, and letting go of our patterns and mindset with the changing times. 

The farmer changes crop every 2 seasons to keep the soil fertile then why do we keep on building these blocks over and over again? 

So i leave you with this question

Do you want to live as a Farmer or builder?

That funny feeling called Gutt instinct

It happens to us always.

Sometimes its a feeling, other times we get an instant answer. Then our mind starts rationalising and many times we let go of this feeling to decide as per our logic.

In meditation , we still our mind to start listening to our Soul. Yet when our soul starts speaking to us we ignore it. Too scared to enter the unknown. Our mind is conditioned to be logical most of the time, our soul on other hand is always pushing the limits to cross over from sub conscious state to conscious.

How many times has it happened that in a blink we get the answer yet we choose to follow the logical path of debating in our mind before we take any action.
Strangely i have gone through this many times and when ever i have listened to my Gutt instinct i have moved forward in life. Many times i have let go of opportunites which if logically speaking could change my circumstances but eventually i would have reached where i took a leap in faith to let go of logic and listening to my inner instinct.
Some how i feel when there is a strong connect within us , some force guides us which has no name, no shape, no face and this force is what is us. Some how we do know our course of life, deep within us to do know the reason why we do what we do, yet we choose to give credit to our wins and failures to the circumstances and outside forces which pull us to make logical decisions.
If we can listen to people to help us make decisions in our life , then why is there no possibility for us to listen to our gutt instinct? Are we trusting outsides to our own self?
Interesting this connotation of trust which we have for ourselves. We can trust people who have nothing to do in our lives, or trust people who would give us biased opinion keeping themselves in our lives yet we choose not to listen to one person which is us.
Is is low self esteem ? or is it acceptance in society for what one is doing?
I personally cannot understand this and many a times i have wondered put myself in other person's shoes to understand why we react the way we do. The answers have been varid and one of them has always been acceptance.
If i cannot accept my own self , my own gut instinct and my own feelings then why would an outsider accept me?

I leave you with this question to answer for your self.

Lost time

"Time waits for no one".

We all say this so many times in our life with a philosophers look on our face. Our whole existence is on this 24 hour watch called time.
Once i met , an old school friend after years. The conversation was more about what we used to do than what we could have in common today. I did not have an heart to tell my friend that we both had moved in different directions in our life and our thinking was completely on different levels. The truth is that there is very little which we find in common with people if we are not in touch with them for some time.  We keep adapting and changing with situations in our life. When i was young i loved reading fiction, david baldacci and james paterson were my favorite, today i cannot read more than a few pages of the same authors and just put the book down. Have i changed? Or is it my likes have changed with time.
Do i call the time i read these books my lost time? As i could have done better with my time or is it my growing up with time?
I love watching TV, but i cannot watch everything that comes on it. Probably a movie or one tv show which i might like for some time. Never a matter of life or death for any movie or show. If i am in a shut brain mode i will watch it otherwise it changes nothing for me. Now am i wasting my time? As i can do something more productive with my time. Do i want to excel or am i happy with this moment. For some i am losing time while for me i am in the moment. What is ok with me probably is not for someone else.
So do i regret this later or i have an epitabh which says no regrets?
These are the questions which hit us at times when we take the journey within. What i am doing today, what i did yesterday and what i am capable of doing.
Time is fluid, its the same which it was yesterday, what it is today and what it will be tomorrow. As the saying goes even the broken watch shows correct time twice in a day.

Bond between a Mother and Daughter

I never realised till June 3, 2012, what bond i shared with my mother. Like ususal mother daughter relationship, we have had our ups and down. Many times my mom scolded me for my mistakes and i used to take her scolding very personal and have huge arguments with her. Today i realise that everything i am is because of her.

Why is it that we only realise the value of a relation or person, when the person is gone? How come we are so rebelious in our nature that we dont see whats right for us from the beginning? Sometimes i wonder what kind of conversation i would have with my mom today if i am given a chance.
First on my list is to hug her tight and say in as many words as i can that I love her. Second i would ask for forgiveness for not understanding her.
The moments which i had with her, were used by me for being a rebel to her every word. She never stopped me from saying my mind out and somehow i am indebted to her for making me who i am today. I never felt it being wrong to speak my mind out. I have never been a follower of any one. Picked up nuances from people who left an impression on my life but through out my life i lived my life on my own turns.
At times i miss my mom a lot as she was my best friend. I could share all my secrets with her and she non judgementally would give me her opinion. This is one quality which i learned from her. Give people a chance and never judge anyone. We never know what that person is going through in life. If you get a chance in life to help someone, just help and don't ask for a favour in return.
Probably third on list will be to ask her, why did she not retaliate to my rebel nature? In my heart i feel her answer would be simple.... because you are my daughter and i love you.
Simple and straight as my mom was always.
Fourth on the list is to ask her, where does she have so much love in heart? how can she love unconditionally? Same answer i feel she would give... you are my child and i love you.

Conversations with my mother happens in mind , maybe this is the only way i can tell her all the things i wanted to tell her. Time waits for no one and sometimes our feelings turn into our thoughts and stay within us. Sometimes we think we have enough time to make wrong right, sometimes we think that let me finish my work, spend time with friends, or what ever i am doing now before i spend time with my loved ones.
Sometimes we just wish we had enough time.

I love you mom and i do look at you within my heart to guide me always.
A child will always be a child even if the child is an adult for their mom.

In memory of my mom who desired nothing from this world other than people love each other and be their for each other.

Destination Vs Journey

We hear this from people often "It's not the destination that matters but the Journey".

Destination is what we call reaching our goals which we set for our life. At times we are so involved and driven by passion to reach our goals that we forget the small experiences which happen on the way for us to reach our destination. We are so driven with winning every turn in our life that we somehow don't learn from our mistakes and failure is something which in our mental psych is a complete NO.
Maybe someday what we keep preaching its the Journey that matters will sink in our psych and that's the day we will start living in today, in Now. Each moment is fluid and once we understand this we will make our long term goals but will live in the moment. We all are given breaths to live, it's a choice we all have how to live life. Some crib their whole life, as how they have been mistreated and how life has been unfair to them. But honestly if you sit back and just look at life.... Its so simple and beautiful. Pure magik as everything is mysterious and quite inside us.
We somehow cannot handle the quiteness and peace which life gives us and therefore our mind to be important, complicates the smallest of our thoughts. We are children born in a very restless environment around us and simple pleasures of life create a sense of discomfort in us. Our mindset is built that if we are happy and simple its a sin. How can "I" a mere mortal be happy with nothing.
Questions and no answers is the journey we take, without realising that the journey is to simply enjoy and accept anything that comes our way.

It is indeed this Journey within us which sets us free. Our mindset is the social cause, who we are is what we keep looking for and searching our whole life.

Enjoy each moment, as world is so beautiful.