We cannot selectively Numb emotions. When we numb painful emotions we also numb positive emotions.
I have heard this saying " I am comfortably numb" many times from my friends/ colleagues/ acquaintances and also i have said this myself. The famous Pink Floyd song with which i guess majority of my generation grew up with.
"hello, is there anybody in there" starts the song.
Today morning as i was thinking about writing my blog, i felt nothingness engulf me. There were no thoughts, no emotion simply nothing. I don't know what to call this thoughtless phases which i get but at this moment i feel nothing. No happiness, no sadness, no emotion other than being one with the energy around us. There seems to be unconditional love which i feel for everything around me in this state. No fear of loss, or win just nothingness which calms my soul.
This made me feel is this what comfortably numb means? and we took it to another level of feeling sad, disillusioned, hiding our pain and frustrations? I am not sure but this is the thought which came into my mind which i am sharing.
I feel there is very little time which we all have in this world. Its a choice we make, either by being happy or being in constant phase of sadness and disillusionment. But in the end the time still stays limited. So what if our thought process was designed to let go of sadness after giving due respect to this one emotion and next moment we could be happy once again? We are expected to feel bad/ show we are sad if things don't go our way. Our little EGO trips with people we love with are plenty. People refuse to communicate to show there anger and sadness. Well time is running out and we can either waste it on feeding our ego or really live these moments with our loved ones and friends by accepting that people are different.
Emotions play a very important role in our life. Our entire existance and relationships are based on our emotions. We feel many things, we also react to people as per our emotions. Sometimes i feel logic takes a back seat when we are emotionally charged. People often say, don't make hasty decisions and don't make decisions when you are angry. Well we say all these sayings but has anyone ever concluded on hasty decisions outcome?
All i know is at times, decisions which we cannot make due to our fears are made during these outbursts. Maybe for some time the going gets difficult, we regret what we said or did, many times we apologise to get the status quo going again but what if the decision is such which cannot be reversed? What happens then?
We look at situations from our individual perspectives and judge the circumstances. But we all forget to err is human and we only learn from our mistakes. I remember as a child, my brother had got this mug which had this cute saying " I don't make the same mistake twice, i find new ones".
If life is all about a big adventure and we all make mistakes then why do we fret and regret over our actions on daily basis.
I had a regret of not spending quality time with my mom, i also had regret of not taking Simba with me on some adventure trips. But now i am living my life by spending quality time with my family and taking Sam to some adventure or another. I have limited time like everyone, all i have done is made my priorities clear within my self to have a wholesome life.
I have come across people who are confused or have lost the will to fight for what they want in life come to me to find peace and answers via meditation. All i tell them is take the journey within and make your priority list of what you want in life. Every day make your priority list, without looking at what you wrote yesterday. In few days/ months the priorities become clear and thats when one starts aiming to live a whole some life.
Therefore being comfortably numb to me is more about being in touch with one's feeling and living a life which we have aspired for on our terms. When we realise that there is only one emotion " love", many of our perceptions and mindsets start changing.
To live well, we cannot run from our feelings but instead we must learn to integrate them into our life and let them guide us.
Take a Journey within to find your zone.
