Life is only a reflection of what we allow ourselves to see.
My vision is tainted by my own thoughts and my own perceptions about what i want in life. There is life happening in the "Now", which i don't want to accept... as i am living in past and imagining what it was like and not accepting what's happening now because i am dreaming of a non existent future.
Sounds familiar... most of us live with this dilemma and unfortunately it's difficult to explain to anyone. DREAMERS...thats what we are called. Living in our own bubble of life. Truth is what we believe it to be...but then what is truth? The most abused word after Sorry is Truth.
My existence is who i am or who i choose to be. Similarly our actions are what we believe we need to do. But in the world we live in... i am who the world perceives me to be and my actions need to be in tandem with others.
Sometimes our best efforts are not good enough and we badger ourselves. Was that the best we could do? or could we do it differently ? so many questions ,yet no answers come to us because as per our perception we gave in our best.
My mind tells me what i am doing is mundane and wishes me to do something with my life. Finding a purpose in life. What if, what i feel as mundane is actually my gift ... my purpose in life?
Our life goes by as we keep questioning everything we do. Our age old limiting beliefs and our own perceptions to what we believe us to be... keeps cajoling us, making us feel incomplete and we try to fit in without knowing what we want.
The basic question is how to fit in this world we have created. What will make us happy? What do we need to do to ensure we fit in? What makes us magical to be part of this magical world. There is happiness all around us, yet we choose to stay away from it. Happiness comes from doing small things, happiness comes from seeing a smile on someone's face and happiness comes when our mind is at peace and we are on same side with our demons. We all have our fears and limitations. We have to accept them and live a fulfilled life in Now. None of us are perfect... perfection is a mind concept and if i feel i am great... then i am great without someone validating this fact for me.
We all have our nuances, and who are we to judge anyone other than ourselves. If i judge myself today.. all i want is to be a better version of myself tomorrow. The parameters are for me, to be my own person and be able to live with any decision i make.
Maybe i feel strong, maybe i feel helpless or maybe i feel numb. Our emotions cloud our judgement and we fall prey to them.
Strength leads to helplessness and when one hits rock bottom one feels numb. And being comfortably numb is when you look through the looking glass of life.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards..... life through looking glass as understood.
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