Circle of life

Ever wonder, why some things happen and we feel helpless. There is no pain greater than to be helpless in the face of a loved one's suffering. Yet we brave the storm and take necessary actions. Makes me wonder, from the time we come on this planet, we are faced with adversities and live life.

Some times i wish i was not a strong person, sometimes i wish i could break down and blame every one and everything around me but will this help my helplessness? Sweet November, comes again. Someday i might start getting scared of November. Last year this month gave me the gravest news of Simba having mouth tumour, which had advanced so much that we could have done nothing. Come November after a year and i get to hear that my little puppy Sam has hip dysplasia. Well life knows how to knock you down and all you can do is still stand on your feet and wait for the final knock out punch.

I don't know, do i blame the person we took Sam from? He had duped us of his lineage and his breed, but then we were so in love with Sam that nothing mattered. For me i only assume that Sam was meant to be in our life. To bring in happiness which he did. His innocent look, his naughty ways and he creating a mess at home was all which we love. If i was to go back to change anything about Sam coming in our lives, i would change nothing other than that he should not have had this genetic disease. If i can i will , i am sure about this. There lies my helplessness. When we don't have the power / control to make things right, when all we can do is depend on medicine, it makes one wonder what is anything worth?

From despair to hope, from sorrow to happiness, somewhere we find life and that is what we all live by. Sometimes in power , sometimes in despair. When things go our way, their is a ring of happiness all around, everything looks beautiful and life is happening. But when things go in another direction, we feel as if life has been unfair with us.
What do i say when we are helpless? Life and moments are still beautiful but we know the duration of these moments is limited. Thats when the true essence of life comes to play. Small things bring happiness and many times tears. This helplessness will go away when one surrenders to what the outcome is but till then the angst and anger surrounds the mighty too.

But then i have surrendered before for my mom and simba and somehow this time i refuse to surrender. There has to be some cure , something which can ensure we give Sam a good life. Not a life where he gets to lose his movement, but a good life which my naughty puppy is used to. This time how ever helpless life wants to make us, at times the resilience of the soul to make a miracle happen is more important than surrendering. What ever the end may be, for today i know the moments we have with Sam are precious .

 Dogs don't have long lives because they don't need to learn how to love unconditionally. They love you unconditionally and make you their life .

This is the Circle of life, and it moves us all. The day we learn to love unconditionally, we will evolve.