Yo-Yo Life

I did a hit search on Internet, and found thousands of funny, motivational, depressing , name any terminology quotes on life. They were very interesting, sounded more like a backlash of all pain, hurt, ego, happiness, Funny, spiritualism, love; name an emotion and you could feel them while reading these quotes. 

Well life is life, and we all play our part in it. Definitely we get no rehearsal time, its one shot one moment. But then same scenes keep repeating in our life, we do get choices and our choices define our life eventually. This sounds so simple, makes me smile as i write this because none of us take life simply. Our every moment is destined with this mystical four letter word Life.

When i was a kid, i never understood or dwelled  into the meaning of life. Never felt the need, as my needs were met by my parents. I did not have to go to work, pay my bills or be responsible for someone else actions. My life depended up passing the exams, being liked by my friends , if a nail broke, oh my god or the new boy who joined school, on whom i had developed a crush must like me. Mundane teenage problems and if anything went wrong, oh my life was over!

Drama queen is what i would call myself if i look back. It was just an exam, if i did not pass it i would have to study harder that's all for next time. Being liked by people, was wearing masks and not being myself but the sacrifice was worth, for my low self esteem. New boy liking me seriously how shallow but then i was a teenager and this was my life. Every one can relate to this situation in school and college. Now comes the fun part, first job, first responsibility and from here the badgering of life starts. 

Small things effect us so much that, at times we forget the larger picture and our life becomes something which we never imagined. Work pressure, performance pressure, family pressure, well we live in pressure made by us and we blame our life for this. For every choice which we make, if things don't go as planned we have the fall person, Our Life to blame. Funny how smoothly we can pass all our misfortune and failures to Life.

Well this goes on and on till the day we live. 

What is Life? Question asked by many,  What is the meaning of my life? Now we can take the capitalism route or the spiritualism . Some where the two routes would definitely meet for me to find the meaning of my life. But then i am too busy with my work and i have no time to think about myself or what i want from life. So when things are going my way, its a beautiful life. And when things go the other way, why ME? Why is my life like this? 

I love the Yo-Yo relationship i have developed with my Life. There are highs and lows, at times i turn with the curve on my high to reach my goals and many a times i fall flat on the low. 

When people come to me to learn meditation, i ask them one question and also ask them to answer in a blink, unfortunately till date i have never got the answer to this question from anyone. Let me put it out for all of you, to know your life, one should be able to answer this in a blink, if one cannot, then do take a journey within is all i can say.

What is it you want from your life?

If you cannot answer this one question about "what i want from my life', then what exactly are you doing in this world?

We look for happiness outside, while many a times wise people have told us to look within for happiness. I tried being happy inside but then many times people outside changed my happiness quotient inside, this made me think maybe i was doing something completely wrong. the Yo-Yo life was now controlling every element of mine.

Therefore after much debate within myself i thought about defining life as i would see it. And strangely when i tried looking at the four letter word, the first thing that popped to my mind was "Look inside for entertainment"
All of a sudden i realised only thing , Life is simple, don't complicate it.
Wow what a summation of life.