I never realised till June 3, 2012, what bond i shared with my mother. Like ususal mother daughter relationship, we have had our ups and down. Many times my mom scolded me for my mistakes and i used to take her scolding very personal and have huge arguments with her. Today i realise that everything i am is because of her.
Why is it that we only realise the value of a relation or person, when the person is gone? How come we are so rebelious in our nature that we dont see whats right for us from the beginning? Sometimes i wonder what kind of conversation i would have with my mom today if i am given a chance.
First on my list is to hug her tight and say in as many words as i can that I love her. Second i would ask for forgiveness for not understanding her.
The moments which i had with her, were used by me for being a rebel to her every word. She never stopped me from saying my mind out and somehow i am indebted to her for making me who i am today. I never felt it being wrong to speak my mind out. I have never been a follower of any one. Picked up nuances from people who left an impression on my life but through out my life i lived my life on my own turns.
At times i miss my mom a lot as she was my best friend. I could share all my secrets with her and she non judgementally would give me her opinion. This is one quality which i learned from her. Give people a chance and never judge anyone. We never know what that person is going through in life. If you get a chance in life to help someone, just help and don't ask for a favour in return.
Probably third on list will be to ask her, why did she not retaliate to my rebel nature? In my heart i feel her answer would be simple.... because you are my daughter and i love you.
Simple and straight as my mom was always.
Fourth on the list is to ask her, where does she have so much love in heart? how can she love unconditionally? Same answer i feel she would give... you are my child and i love you.
Conversations with my mother happens in mind , maybe this is the only way i can tell her all the things i wanted to tell her. Time waits for no one and sometimes our feelings turn into our thoughts and stay within us. Sometimes we think we have enough time to make wrong right, sometimes we think that let me finish my work, spend time with friends, or what ever i am doing now before i spend time with my loved ones.
Sometimes we just wish we had enough time.
I love you mom and i do look at you within my heart to guide me always.
A child will always be a child even if the child is an adult for their mom.
In memory of my mom who desired nothing from this world other than people love each other and be their for each other.
Why is it that we only realise the value of a relation or person, when the person is gone? How come we are so rebelious in our nature that we dont see whats right for us from the beginning? Sometimes i wonder what kind of conversation i would have with my mom today if i am given a chance.
First on my list is to hug her tight and say in as many words as i can that I love her. Second i would ask for forgiveness for not understanding her.
The moments which i had with her, were used by me for being a rebel to her every word. She never stopped me from saying my mind out and somehow i am indebted to her for making me who i am today. I never felt it being wrong to speak my mind out. I have never been a follower of any one. Picked up nuances from people who left an impression on my life but through out my life i lived my life on my own turns.
At times i miss my mom a lot as she was my best friend. I could share all my secrets with her and she non judgementally would give me her opinion. This is one quality which i learned from her. Give people a chance and never judge anyone. We never know what that person is going through in life. If you get a chance in life to help someone, just help and don't ask for a favour in return.
Probably third on list will be to ask her, why did she not retaliate to my rebel nature? In my heart i feel her answer would be simple.... because you are my daughter and i love you.
Simple and straight as my mom was always.
Fourth on the list is to ask her, where does she have so much love in heart? how can she love unconditionally? Same answer i feel she would give... you are my child and i love you.
Conversations with my mother happens in mind , maybe this is the only way i can tell her all the things i wanted to tell her. Time waits for no one and sometimes our feelings turn into our thoughts and stay within us. Sometimes we think we have enough time to make wrong right, sometimes we think that let me finish my work, spend time with friends, or what ever i am doing now before i spend time with my loved ones.
Sometimes we just wish we had enough time.
I love you mom and i do look at you within my heart to guide me always.
A child will always be a child even if the child is an adult for their mom.
In memory of my mom who desired nothing from this world other than people love each other and be their for each other.
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